Appreciation Candy from Manager

Message from my manager

I got this small candy jar from my manager as his appreciation to me on the works I assisted him. It is very kind of him.

IBM Sweet Appreciation Day

This candies are specially made or designed for IBM by Sticky in 1 Utama in conjunction of "IBM Sweet Appreciation Day". 

Different kind of colors and favors

There are few different designs of the candies which is unique. They use different colors and favors to make those patterns and wording.

Happy Fifth Anniversary

Today mark the fifth wedding anniversary with my beloved husband, Ken. But we have known each other for a decade! I cannot imagine that time past really fast like a blink of eyes.

What I can say about him? Well, he is undoubtedly a loving husband even I make very bad fuss and attitude sometimes. He is undoubtedly a caring father to our adorable three and a half years old daughter, Ezel even sometimes she makes him really mad and angry. If you asks me to lead a life without him, I says, "Please kill me right now!" because I really cannot imagine my life without him!

Although the past few years has been difficult for us especially financially, I believe we can breakthrough the difficult time together and into a brighter future in years to come. Hang in there, hubby!

With love, hugs and kisses always and forever, you are always in my heart! 

My Craft Wish List - Hero Arts Stamps

I just loves Hero Arts stamps despite there are other brands.

I been spotting the cupcakes stamps they offered. There are many choices with different sizes and of course pricing. As value for money and usage, I been deciding which one to buy so that I can have different and maximize the usage of it. I have to do some weighing between money and usage so that I really buy something that really useful as money is a very key point here due to the exchange rate and of course my personal financial issue.

In total, there are eight (8) similar design of cupcakes stamps by Hero Arts.

CG157 Large Cupcakes

The first one is CG157 Large Cupcakes. It is really large and it is a cling stamp which cost between RM75++ to RM89++. Although it is large but I do not have much variety to play with. Conclusion : one design or usage; keep in view.

CG151 Happy Birthday Cupcakes

Thus, I opt for CG151 Happy Birthday Cupcakes which consists of two (2) different design of cupcakes and a bubble "Happy Birthday to You" message. The cupcakes are quite large as well (not as large as CG157 though) and it is a cling stamp which cost between RM59++ to RM79++. Although I have two (2) different design of cupcakes and a bubble "Happy Birthday to You" message, it still cannot give me a variety of idea except sticking to birthday wishes. Conclusion : worth for money but limited to birthday wishes; keep in view.

CG110 Cupcakes

There is another cling stamp with cupcakes is CG110 Cupcakes which the whole piece is cupcakes as design. This design can use as background as well as cut of the small cupcakes to be use individually. However, it will be a bit tedious to do so as the image is not that large. It cost around RM59++ to RM79++. Conclusion : not much usage except for birthday wishes or party and background which is very rare in occasion; keep in view.

From the above conclusion, I think I better look for other option - clear stamps that comes with more than at least five (5) designs in a 4"x6" sheet which cost between RM72++ to RM79++.

CL277 Birthday Frame And Messages

The first option is CL277 Birthday Frame And Messages that comes with four (4) different framed birthday messages. There are party hat, cupcakes, cake and a slice of cake with different birthday messages. Judging from the design, it can provides me with a number of ideas as the party hat, cupcakes, cake and a slice of cake images can be re-use with other occasions (separate usage as intended). Not a bad option on this set. Conclusion : worth for money with a number of usage; keep in view.

CL390 Decorate Your Own Cake

The next is the CL390 Decorate Your Own Cake. As the title suggest, this stamp come with a big cake frame with candles on top and four (4) horizontal cake's decoration and two (2) birthday messages. Yes, you may have the option to customize the cake decoration every time you make a birthday wishes card but it is limited to that only. You cannot make other occasion card using this stamp. Conclusion : Rejected due to its limitation of usage.

CL382 Wonderful Birthday

The next choice is CL382 Wonderful Birthday which is quite attractive. This is because it come with a cupcake (which I longed to have), a birthday day with message "Happy Birthday" on top, a birthday balloon, a balloon with stars, a bird with hat and some birthday messages. There are variety of mix-and-match ideas with this set of stamp. I can use the cupcake and cake in different occasion (such as wedding wishes), the bird in another occasion (if needed, can trim off the hat), the balloon with stars can be used in somewhere else. Definitely a good choice! Conclusion : Recommended.

CL158 Cupcakes

Another 4"x6" stamp is CL158 Cupcakes which comes with nothing but six (6) cupcakes. There are two (2) medium cupcakes (with one design same as CL382 Wonderful Birthday cupcake but minus the candle and slightly bigger) and four (4) medium small cupcakes. Then, it comes with a birthday message ("Happy Birthday") and four (4) non-so-birthday related messages. What best is that there is standalone candle, cherry and rose decoration which can be simply add-on to the cupcakes! Conclusion : Recommended but usage is not as much as CL382 Wonderful Birthday as it is only limited to cupcakes.

CL168 Cupcakes

There is another smaller size set, 2"x3" which cost around RM25++ to RM35++. There is only one set that come with cupcake in this size, CL168 Cupcakes. It consists of one medium cupcake and a small cupcake. The messages are very generic, not birthday related and come with three (3) decorations. This size also comes with 10 gemstones which can be easily purchase separately. The prices is a bit high partly due to the gemstones. Conclusion : Recommended but usage is limited to cupcakes as in CL158 Cupcakes and not very worthy for money.

Thus, my final conclusion or wish list should be :

1) CL382 Wonderful Birthday (if I get this, the rest of the list can be drop until I have some extra money)
2) CL158 Cupcakes
3) CL168 Cupcakes
4) CG151 Happy Birthday Cupcakes
5) CG157 Large Cupcakes

Well, since the wish list has been confirmed, I need to work on my saving (guess that will be a quite some time due to my current financial condition) and I hope the shop have CL382 Wonderful Birthday! I see CG151 Happy Birthday Cupcakes, CG157 Large Cupcakes and CG110 Cupcakes in that shop but not sure about other sets I want as above.

Improving.....

I was awake in middle of the night to grab my blanket and I realize that the room door is wide open. I asks Ken in the sleep if he keeps the door open. He said yes and I continued my sleep.

However, do not know what time, Ezel came crying and ask me to sleep with her. So, I brings her to her room and asks her to sleep on her bed while me sleep on the floor matted with her old small baby's mattress. She falls back asleep very fast and I went back to my room to continue my sleep.

Well, the situation is improving but it is really takes time to work thing out.

Ken said that he will take the outside side of the bed and asks me to sleep inside side of the bed tonight so that Ezel would know disturb me. Ken do not want Ezel disturb my sleep. What a nice and caring husband! *Muaks*

Ezel, please be a good girl tonight and sleep by your own.

The Story Continues

It is time for Ezel to go to bed. She been in her room since dinner to watch her cartoon. From time to time, she will come out to the living room and tease us a bit. 

But when the time is getting late and her sleepiness is crawling to her mind, she knows and will ask for her milk. However, we refused to give her as she will ask again when she really go to bed later. After so much of nagging, finally I made the milk to her and ask her to go to bed alone while Ken and I stay in living room watching television.

Then, we decided to sleep as well. Since we moved our study tables back to our room and re-arrange the room earlier in the afternoon, there is no need to be in the living room. So, we tell Ezel that we will go to bed and she sleep in her bed. Ken switched off the lights in the living room. 

After few minutes in our room, Ezel come knocking on our room and seem wanted to cry. Ken brings her back to the room and tell her that she should sleep alone like other kids and promised her that she will get many toys if she sleep alone. After 20 minutes passed, Ken gave up and come out telling me that he wasted a lot of saliva to tell her. But she is yet to be asleep.

About five minutes later, Ezel come knocking again but this time we ignore her. She do not dare to open the door and keeps a low weeping outside the door. A few minutes gone and she still standing outside our room and her weeping goes louder. I think she is afraid of the dark surrounding.

Soon I opened the door, she cried out and said she wants light. Ken suggested to switch on the normal light and pat her to sleep. I did what Ken suggested and she is asleep in 10 minutes. I went back to the room to get my sleep as well.

The Beginning is Always the Hardest

Finally, the sky is bright. I wake up and found that Ken is not beside me. So, I went to Ezel's room and found him sleeping on the floor! I wake him up and took his place while he went back to our room to continue sleep.

Later, Ezel was awake and I make her a bottle of milk and switch on her favourite cartoon on the television in her room. Then, I went back to my own room to continue sleep. Occasionally, I will wake up and have a peek on Ezel because she did not come to our room to disturb us and there is a total silent. I peek on her as I afraid, touch wood, something happened to her. But, she stays in her room and watch her favourite cartoon.

I think the beginning of everything is always the hardest. Hope tonight gets better.

A Night Without Ezel

Ezel has been sleeping in her own room now. After few hours doing our own stuffs at the new space in the living room, Ken and I finally decided to go to bed as well.

Before asleep, Ken said that finally Ezel sleep on her own. As he speaks, suddenly, he said that he missed her even it is only few meters away! Ken said even now is only few meters away, he missed her so much. He said he felt that way because he been caring for her since she was born. 

Then, I said, "If one day when she grown up and get married, I think you will weep very badly". 

"I have the same feeling too", he said.

Not long into the chat, suddenly our room door opened and Ezel come in with a crying face! She keeps crying and I bet she is scare as she sees no one in her new room except herself. Then, I ask her to go pee and bring her back to her room and accompany her to sleep. She fell back to sleep after a moment and I move back to my own room to sleep as well.

Sleep Alone

Today, the whole afternoon, we been shifting our-so-called-study-room out to the living room so that we can move Ezel's bed from our room to there. We shifted our study tables (Ken's and mine) which occupied half the room. We leave the book racks on the other side of the wall as we concluded that the living room is not suitable to put all these stuffs. 

With that, Ezel got a new room of her own (not the whole room but third quarter of the room at least). We decided to train her to sleep alone as she is three and a half years old now. She been sleeping with us since she was a baby.

We moved her single bed and the television for her into the room. Then, her bucket of toys and playing stuffs that lies in the living room also moved into the room. Her two (2) small tricycles also been moved into the room which just nice to put all her stuffs. Her kiddy study table stay in the room. After all the arrangement, the third quarter space in the room officially becomes her cozy room and space. She is quite excited as usual as we told her earlier that she should sleep alone. We purposely buy a small dimmed light for her so that she would be less afraid sleeping alone (like what my parents do to me when I was small). 

When time to sleep, she seems a bit reluctant to sleep alone. Ken and I been pursuing her very hard to sleep by her own. First, we let her sleep alone while drinking her milk and watching her own cartoon in the room. Once she finished her milk, she started to make some attitudes by coming out to the living room and things like that. She is very sleepy at that moment but she keeps pushing herself awake due to the new environment. 

Then, I accompany her into the room and tell that her toys like teddy bear, rabbits, frog and etc are accompany her to sleep. I ask her to sleep with all the toys surrounding her. Then, I walk out to the living room but in less than five (5) minutes, she is out to the living room again. 

Since we know she is very sleepy, Ken suggested me to accompany her and pat her to sleep. So, I did and within 15 minutes, she is fast asleep. Then, I came out living the small dimmed light on.

Finally, Ezel to manage to sleep alone in her own room after a numerous in-and-out game.

Twilight Saga Eclipse Trailer

It has been a while since I read the last chapter of Breaking Dawn. Oooppppssss.....I think I have not finished the last chapter of Breaking Dawn if I am not mistaken. Anyway, even the last chapter is not finished, the end is anticipated. Thus, there is no more suspend to me to read on. I think that is the reason I kept the last chapter unread.

Anyway, my passion towards Twilight Saga has been a bit down ever since the last screening of New Moon. In addition to that, during that time, I am reading and about to finish Breaking Dawn. Thus, the passion has lost its way somewhere.

Until today, when I click to Stephenie Meyer's website and Twilight Saga Official website and I watch the trailers, the passion find its way back to me! Somehow, I have to admit that I am kind of forgotten what Eclipse is about. :(

Then, I am kind of wonder. Is Eclipse storyline is not attractive enough for me to remember or I just leave the memory behind for a while? I really do not know but when I get the glimpse of the trailers, the memories of Eclipse comes back to me. Then, I have a sudden gesture to re-read the novel!

Somehow, I asks myself a simple question, "Do you have the time?". "Yes, do I have the time?". I echoed the question again in my mind. I am really not sure if I have the time as I need to make some cards - been addicted to my new hobby recently. Yesterday I plan to make a thank you plus hello card to my best friend but I ended up doing nothing.

Am I just wasting time or just do not have time? The question is not answerable by me. Let see what happens tonight.....

I Feel Like.....

I feel so down now and for the past few days. I never felt so down and moody. This time it is hitting me so hard!

I really feel like telling those people that I wanted to commit suicide if you keeps pushing me! I really meant it! I just do not know what else to do.

I feel like living and surviving suddenly become the hardest thing to do now. I just cannot bear to continue to live on like this. I feel like keep myself hidden somewhere and forget all about it! But I cannot just do that!

God, please, please, please help me to go thru this for the sake of my little daughter and my husband! I really would like to live on and go on with life but I am so struggling now! Please give me some hints and guidance!